The Lady Room

The next few posts will be a kind of love letter, not just to E and B, but to myself.  It is a love letter to the year that is passing. The new "natural year", which runs from from fall equinox to fall equinox, starts on September 22 at 11:09 p.m., eastern daylight time.  Here is what Machaelle Small Wright says about the Fall Equinox:

In nature, this is the new year, the day that begins the next year's cycle. It is the day when the call goes out for the new cycle to activate and begin its formation processes on the deepest of energy levels. At Perelandra, at the precise moment of the fall equinox I, as creator of this garden, initiate the call by saying aloud,
I request the next cycle and wish to assist its full unfolding.

This has been a year of Love and of Preparing for Love.  I am the same man I was a year ago, but in a new way.   Something is ready to blossom:  I have started to marry my own inner woman.

Starting this year, I have a room in my house I call the Lady Room.   It used to be my home office. And for right now, it is still where I sit to do my research, write these notes, and do many of my practices.  But now it is ready for something else.  Over the course of the last year I have moved almost all of the "office" out of it.  The books are gone, the file folders put away.  The MC Escher print of a head in ribbons that used to hang on the wall has been replaced by a print of Our Lady Queen of the Universe.  It is now a room that is dedicated to the inner and the outer "lady".  The "Lady Room" is ready for the lady.

The inner and outer women in my life have at times felt left out on their own, as if there is no partner here to partner with.  My emotional life is more like Earth and Air than it is Water and Fire -- at times dry, hidden, and even bare.  The mental life is more obvious, more flashy, more celebrated.  (Even here there is much to appreciate, as I learn to let go of trying to be anybody else than who I am.)  But this year of love has emerged quite naturally, like a flower after rain.  No "forcing", no "will power".  Just one simple prayer:

Trust Love.

Amen.